Rolling the Credits..

Yesterday was not the best morning of my life. I have insomnia, so I never sleep. And I woke up after about an hour of sleep to start my day... And all I could replay in my head was "worst mistake of my life." Thats what Trask said to his friends about me. I try so hard not to cry when it comes to him or anything, because for some odd reason people get really upset when it comes to me crying. I was having a bad day, and while I was dealing with this, I was actually saving Trask from getting his ass kicked. I should completely hate him. But I don't. I mean I honestly do not want him back, but I feel like I still just need him in my life. So I put up with his shit and let him disrespect me to his friends, and then be a completely different person when we are alone. It hurt like a dagger to hear him say something so heartless. Because I know even though both of us have regreted our reletionship, he loved it and me. We'd break up, and he was the one that always came back. Not me. Doesn't sound like you regret it that much? But ah well, shit happens.