Essay for a potential scholarship

My Essay Question: Who has been your mentor or role model? Why does this person play that role for you?

As I’ve grown up, there have been several people I have admired or looked up to, but there is one person that has constantly been there, and influencing my life. Although it’s a common answer, it is more the truth then one could expect.
My mom is unlike any person you’d meet. And until I started growing I never realized the person she truly is. She is the kind of woman who doesn’t given up on anyone, she constantly does what ever she can to make everyone in her life happy. With me, she has helped me since I was a little girl tell me right from wrong, and how to find the right amount of both to have a good life, which have helped develop the skills I will need to truly succeed in life. Everything truly good in me, is due to her. I learnt how to care for people, and their needs, by watching her take care of every one around me single-handedly. She is the strongest person I’ve ever met, even when she’s been at her weakest.
Since I was little my mom has forced me towards greatness. Her biggest goal for me, is to succeed and have the most amazing life possible, not just to prove to others who have doubted me in my life, but just so I can enjoy pure happiness. My mom has always been tougher on me, and more strict with me, then most parents have been with their kids. And now looking back ,and remembering at the time how much I didn’t like it, and looking at who I am and where I am in my life, I truly appreciate it. I know what makes me happy, and what I don’t need to be happy. I have respect for myself, and I love the traits that I have, because of her, besides how stubborn I am, which I completely think is her fault.
My mom is someone that most everyone feel they can go to and trust without being judged. She can give them advice that makes them want to be better, the fact that she has just made such an affect on me, makes to strive to be like her, so someone may possibly feel that way about me one day and pass it on. I owe who I am to her. There’s nothing else I can say.

Spring Break is no more... School Again

I honestly have become so hung up on leaving that I'm starting to hate school, like I just dread it. Spring break was wonderful, and I loved it, but it was just too darn short I'm not gonna lie about it. I hung out with old friends, and met some really good new ones!
I just lived up, I was just way relexed and just had fun and it was great, until the guys thing got complicated :/ But I still just kept trying to keep high school out of it, cuz I just hate this school, and honestly I think I hate school because of Trask, like I just want out of it, cuz there's nothing here holding me back anymore. I just want prom to get here, then ten days after that I am walking across the stage and then Im done for good.
Unless you know I dont have my classes, then FML.
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So I just found out what the rapper TI's sentence was for his gun charge, he got a year in federal prison. I know he will get out, but it still bummed me out. But he could have gotten a max of 35 years, so that is really good I guess.

Changes :)

So lately things have been good. I've been enjoying my time and trying to live it up. Trying to spend my last few moments of high school, being a kid, taking chances and just going crazy. I just think that its about time for some changes and the more and more that come, the more and more I realize I needed them.

New chapter of my life

So..

Here begins my new chapter. After 15 months, I am single. As of exactly two weeks ago today actually. He asked me out on a Thursday, and broke up with me on one. To be honest, I don't know my current status. To be honest and sum everything up, my heart got broken and I'm working on the damages.

This is the point where I say it. Two weeks ago Trask cheated on me with Becca Vogl. He broke up with me because his feelings changed. The Friday after, his best friends told me the truth. Monday I found out at the beginning of our relationship, he cheated on me with Emily Wrider, but deep down I knew that one. But it pissed me off enough to go to the cafeteria and hit him for it. Then when I knew I couldn't hit him like I wanted to, I walked outside, punched a brick wall, and about broke my hand. It was sick lol.

I have my good moments... Then I chill even for a split second, then the moments fall into my head. The first kiss, the waking up on his chest seeing him smiling at me, all the pictures of us EVERY WHERE, all the cute songs, the moments, special places, everything that was TNT... Then I think what makes her so much better then me, all that crap that just tears into you... It could be so easy to talk shit, or hurt her, and him, and just tell all the stuff I know.. But I can't. Don't have it in me, I just want to let go. Which hurts but eh...

I forgave him cheating. I don't have enough energy to hate him to be honest. Not that kind of person. I don't hate Becca either. Its not worth it. Honestly, even though he has royally fucked me over and hurt me to a point I could stand, eat or sleep, I still want his friendship. Because even though he was never a friend to be, I truly was his friend. We were each others everything ya know, so I've felt lost with out him. But I;m starting to get up and just brush off. I've had some "hook ups" but then, when it comes to the point where the guy wants more... I say, even though I'm super vulnerable right now, that doesn't change the girl I am, and "hook ups" are not me.

I have come to a point where it hurt and pissed me off, and still does from time to time, but its not my everything anymore.. He's had Becca to distract him from the actual break up, where as I just got through it. Its weird, but still.. Actually while going through this, I opened my eyes to see other people.. And in the process, a really good friend, turned into something more :) I think I needed something to just change my train of thought, and last weekend did :) I got happy. And stayed that way.

Also thank you for all the kindness I really apprecaite all of the support:)

I'm not over it, and deep down I never will be completely.. But I'm getting so over it.. I'm moving on..

"I'm over your lies and I'm over your games.I'm over you asking me,when you know I'm not okay. You call me at night, and I pick up the phone. And though you've been telling me, I know you're not alone. That's why (your eyes) I'm over it (your smile) I'm over it (realize) I'm over..

Wanting you,to be wanting me. No that ain't no way to be. How I feel, read my lips, because I'm so over.. Moving on, it's my time, you never were a friend of mine. Hurt at first, a little bit, but now I'm so over it...I'm over your hands, and I'm over your mouth. Trying to drag me down, and fill me with self-doubt. I'm Moving on, it's my time, you never were a friend of mine. Hurt at first, quite a bit...

Don't call, don't come by, ain't no use, don't ask me why, you'll never change,there'll be no more crying in the rain. How I feel, read my lips,because I'm so over.. Moving on, it's my time, you never were a friend of mine. Hurt at first, a little bit, but now I'm so over. I'm so over it.."