The night after prom...

Later that night around 8 Bethany picked me and Brittany up to take us to a bonfire at her boyfriend Rj's house. When we got there I just had a really long talk with Rj's family, and met everyone, and it was interesting. About 11 I started talking to Trask, til like 1 in the morning... First words out of his mouth were, "so you and Jake are together." I was confused how he of all people knew, since it happened like 5 hours before.... Ike told him. That kid kills me, every time we say anything to each other, Trask just has to update me on his life. Like everything I could have missed. Its ridiuclous. Long story short I ended up falling asleep in the camper with Brittany..
Now I could get into this whole thing more, but I have no time, and somethings are just too personal!

Waking up after prom

So I woke up about 1 and it was beautiful outside. And both Bethany and Brittany wanted me to hang out with them. So I ended up hanging out with Dustin and Brittany at Britt's for a grill out, where I fond out that Brittany lost Precious, cuz she opened the door, and Precious (the dog) ran out. I was very upset and went looking for her, but couldn't find her. And Jake told me he was going to come, but then when Brittany came and got me, he told me he couldn't come, I got really sad. So while I'm inside Brittany runs in and grabs me telling me she found Precious :) So she puts her hand over my eyes and leads me outside, and she was like look what she looks like, I was scared that she had been ran over or something. So we make it half way down the drive way, and Jake picked me up and swung me around in his arms... Scared the hell out of me! But I couldn't stop smiling, because I'm a loser. So we all hung out for a bit, then Jake had to leave at like seven.

He asked me to walk him to his car, and he like grabbed my hand, and said "do you remember last night when you told me to make a wish," and I said "yeah?" He was like, "okayy, so will you go out with me?" I said "yes." Then he was like, "Thanks for making my wish come true babe!" I couldn't stop smiling, then he hugged me, we did the kiss thing, and then he went on his way! Good times!

An Amazing Night

So Saturday was amazing :) I got my hair done at 9 in the morning, and then went home, got on some face book, just chill until like 11, and then Ike called me, and I talked to him for like an hour, it was so funny he didn't want to go to prom with Brittnee at all. And he was dreading it so much. And then at like 12:15 or so I got ready, and Jake came got me at like 12:45... He looked gorgeous!!!! Like the second I opened the door, we both got the biggest smiles :) My flower was beautiful! So we got in his car, and went to Hy-Vee, and Keil wanted to see me so I switched into my sneakers and ran into see him quick. Then I went to his house and took some photos for his mom and then we stopped back at my house to grab my cash. After Taran called m e and told me to come over, so of course I did! Toni and Taran just told me how pretty I looked and talked to them with Jake for a bit. Then as we were leaving Charlie texted me asking me when he got to see me, so since we were on his street I was like right now, and so I stopped by his house, and Charlie, Alyssa and Will came out, and we all talked and had fun, then Alyssa left, and so Charlie and Will came over to my house, after the beat up Blue (the cat.) When I got to my house Bethany, Rj, Brandi, Alexa and Mitch, and Bethany's dad were already there, I laughed! Then we went out and took some super cute pictures, and then they all left. So I waited for Leah and Dallas with Will, Charlie and Jake. So they came and we took some cute pictures and hung out for a bit. Then we dropped Charlie and Will off, and headed to grand march with Bethany and Rj. We were like the 4th or 5th to go, and I lifted up my dress when we walked down, to show off the sneaks. We got a aloud applause followed by alot of laughs :) I am the kind of person that likes to be crazy, and not be average, and I loved my shoes! FOR SURE! After Bethany and Rj got done, we took pictures with his mom, and then took off to Elm Crest, where me and Jake took our pictures, and just chilled until everyone else got there so we could take our group picture. After it was dinner time.... Right after dinner Kayleigh stopped by to take pictures with me! Then we danced, I was so sore when left :p

After prom, we went to Bethany's moms house to get changed and sat down for a second. Then to Sonic, and just chilled where I fell asleep lol. But I made it to 11:11 where I notified Jake to make a wish (THIS PLAYS A BIG PART.) Then on the way to post prom we almost died. A car like majorly cut us off while it was trying to race Jake while he was doing about 80 down Edge wood. To save us and the car, he swerved into a median. I'm usually not scared in cars, even though I believe that I will die in a car, I've always had that feeling. But that got to me, I was more worried about Jake though, because he does have an anger problem. But he was so pissed, he was like shaking, and that's what scared me. He like completely changed. I felt terrible. We eventually made it to post prom where he took a deep breath in and tried to relax. We got in, and Leah and Dallas already had a bowling lane for us to join. So we all got settled, grabbed some food and just relaxed, 5 minutes after that, I won a digital camera :) woot woot! So I gave my old one to Rj! He was pretty excited lol. So then we bowled and ate food till 2 in the morning. Well then Justine showed up "feeling different" so I took the camera and went around the bowling alley taking pictures for year book, where Brooke grabbed me and gave me a hug telling me how sorry she was and hoping we could just be happy, and friends and everything, where I was like sure! Then they hypnotist started. It was so funny. Basically Ike ditched Michaela, Cody and Brittnee, came sat with us. Cody Lewis and Jake about killed Ike he was laughing so hard. Dez almost beat the crap out of basically everyone, and Jake and Cody were so obnoxious, I loved it :) So I made it home about 5, and then I fell asleep till one in the afternoon :) That was my amazing night!!

Tomorrow is prom..omgoooosh :0 its almost here! I am so excited and nervous and just ugh I want it to come lol. At first it fet like it was taking forever to come, and now its come so quickly lol. Once I leave I'm gonna pick up my sneakers. The picture is not the best, but thats them and they really do look sick in person! For sure.

So this is m plans for today, leave here, go to the police station with my friend Mike to press charges aganist his ex-girl friend Emilky (WHO IS INSANE) and then pick up Charlie and Alyssa, and then meet Malorie at the mall. Get my shoes :) Then chill, and probablly tan, then I gotta pick Taran up at school at 3 and then take her home, meet up with Shelby at like 4, and then I work at 5:15, where I have to make $50 so I can get my hair done for prom tomorrow... Then Brittany wants me to go camping tonight when I get off in her back yard with her and Curtis in a camper, but I don't seeing that work out too well, seeing as how I need to be up at 8 the next morning so lol... We shall se what actually happens!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG PROM DUDE!!!

I am for sure so excited to see everyone done up and beautiful! Its like just abot to make my life and I hope its worth how much I've gone through to get to this point.

Thirsty Thursday...

Yesterday was alright, like I had a good afternoon, I picked up my cute little friend Miranda and we drove around, got something to eat and went to the mall. Honestly whenI first met her, I thought she was the most annoying thing I've ever met, and I told her that! But as time moves on, I get why she tries to make friends, and honestly she is such a freaking sweet heart and has such a huge heart its ridiculous, I just like her alot lol. Then we dropped her off, and went to pick up Taran, where I then had an hour conversation with her, that basically broke my heart. Taran is my family and I am so protective of her its ridiculous, I just cant even explain it. There was a situation with her and someone else, and thats all I can say. Well I made her tell Trask, becuase she made me promise not to tell him, beucase there re just somethings that will never change about me and him... And she told him, and he called me freaking out... It was a long conversation, this all happened while I was getting my nails done for prom lol.
Then I went to work, where I screwed up someone's bill, so they basically left without out paying a $42 bill... Which of course means that it came out of my pocket, so I walked away with two bucks at the end of the night. I was just in a bad mood, because I had so much on my mind, and then all this, it just ughh.. My night remotely got better, becuase towards the end of my shift, Jake randomly started texting me, and then out of no where I get the text, "I miss you." I had like a ten minute smile, not gonna lie. Then he kept telling me how much he wanted to see me, so the second I got off work, I drove to go see him, and out 5 minute thing, turned into like an hour something :) He was sick and sore and tired as hell, but he wouldn't let me leave!!! I loved it... FOR SURE! ba ha ha ha
And then when I got home I called Taran and talked to her for like and hour, and then I fell asleep.. It was an alright ending..

Continuing the craziniess...

On top of the fun past few days, there are the simple things that annoy me... Like people who think they can talk to me, but can't.. Wednesday, I was feeling crappy, and Jake came over and hung out with me, and then I find out about all these girls who hit on him and talk to him all the time and when he denies them, they make up stuff about him and doing stuff with them... That's pretty annoying. Like the reason me and Jake broke up, were because girls from his past started calling me and made up crap about him to me. So when I told him about it, he freaked out, because he had previously had to deal with a situation like that, and it got way outta hand, and the girl was crazy.. So he ended it, before it would/could get to that point again.. And I really don't like hearing all this stuff about other girls, but I love that he is being honest about it. One more thing that makes him completely different from Trask.. And I really can't get mad at him, because guys hit on me too. Like way more then I realized, and I am a huge flirt, and I know Jake gets pissed when other guys try to talk to me or touch or hit me... So I kinda feel bad about the situation. So me and Jake had long talk, and we got into talking about my birth family, and why I have been acting odd lately which would go into that. and he felt so bad, and he just gave me like a 20 minute hug and just told e everything would be okayy.. And like something that has been on my mind is that I really don't want to see any of them especially on my prom night, but I can't tell Rj and Bethany that their families can't experience this moment with them, which is why Jake told me, that the second I feel uncomfortable, he will matturely take care of it, because no one or nothing will ruin this nihgt for me. This made me cry. Jake does not like it when I cry, at all. And then he left eventually and I just went on a walk and tried to think before I had to go to work. And thats all I remember about Wednesday...

Craziness.. those cats and dogs living together!

So the past week has been nothing less, but interesting. Sunday was great... after I got off work. I went to see Jake, and spent some amazing time with him. Then later that night me and Ike finally had a conversation, and me and him are finally on track again :) woot woot ya know!!! Monday I was having a darn good day, and later that night Trask popped into my head, and I hadn't talked to him in a while so I texted him saying"hey hope life is going good," and of course, he responds, "It is." I say "that's good" he says, "how about you?" I told him, "I am pretty darn happy right now actually." He said, "I'm glad." I said, "any thing new with you?" He then sent me a text Becca had sent him earlier saying that "I've never been happier with anyone.. that's new" I said "oh, did you send that to her?" He said, "no tiff, she sent that to me!" I said, well do you feel the same?" He then said, " idkk... I love her, and yeah, but earlier tonight she was looking at all my old pictures on face book of you and me, and she didn't like them, so I told her that I wanted to get rid of them I just don't know how, so then she showed me how to start untagging myself in them and did a bunch for me. Then when I got home, I looked through them all again, and then did the rest myself, and it was really hard. After I got done, Becca didn't feel special anymore." I had nothing to say..

Curious

why the hell does he say stuff like that to me?

He ended up calling me, and just updated me on his life, without end... Ughh it was making my stomach sick to be honest, and don't ask me why!! Tuesday was Mike's 20th birthday, damn he is getting old ;) And me and Brittany went out to eat at the Olive Garden with him. Where Bethany started talking to me about my birth family, because her boyfriend is my biological cousin, so he knows stuff about me.. I have six mixed brothers and sisters, and I just have to stop, it all really gets to me.. Then later on we picked up Taran and had some fun with my cute little Roo, then picked up Brittany's bike at Curtis's where we found the cutest dog ever, of which the owner let us keep, its like a mini Pomeranian-which goes for like $500. Then we drove it to Kennedy, to see Draik and Charlie, and Trask and Ike were playing keeper in his soccer game, I sat by Ty and Toni (his parents) and Ike's mom and Grandpa, and we were all talking then I realized that Becca was a couple of the stands away from me, wearing the sweat shirt I bought him, I chuckled. And then I had to leave, and Trask kept starring at me, and then when Toni realized everyone was talking shit about Becca she got up and went to talk to her ;) Then we took off and went to Curtis's where Brittany and I took "mr. all state wrestling champion," and I basically beat up Curtis. Then Jake picked me up, where I just sat there thinking about the whole "birth family thing." And he could instanly tell something was bothering me... He just thought it was him. And he got really upset.. Then we started talking about that where I got the text, "I'm sorry.. I just like you......ALOT!!!" And that he basically thinks he's not good enough for me, and that I am not interested in him, because he knows other guys like me. He doesn't get how much he means to me. I honestly didn't think I could look at another guy like I looked at Trask, but I do. Everytime I hear a love song, for once, Trask doesn't come into my mind. I get butterflies around him, he is always on my mind, when he hugs me, I never want to let go of him, he is like my ugh I don't even know... But I like it :) And then the night ended with Michaela ha ha ha.... Dumbie freaked out on me, and said some stupid stuff acting like her words hurt me!! But they don't, I'm done letting her or anyone else in my life hurt me. I dont deserve it. And that was my super fantastic Tuesday..

Not alot of time left..

So the clock is officially ticking.... The time is almost up and coming down on us. Seniors are ya ready? Because the real life is coming whether we want it to or not!! Its so weird to think that it was just 4 years ago we walked into school as FRESHMEN!! Its funny to remember those days, and see me now.
I was this super fat ugly gross looking girl, who didn't stand up to anyone, and didn't have the best people as friends. The only reason I wasn't a dirty was because I simply took showers. lol. And then today, trust me, I'm completely different. I now am the girl, that if you say something I don't like, I'm pretty blunt about it. I don't back down, you think your tough, I'll show you how weak you are. Sometimes my bark is bigger then my bite, until you force me to bring it out. Like I wont start something out of thin air for no reason, most of the time, I have one. Which is why I am hated by most. I'm honestly your best friend, or a huge problem for you. You disrespect me or loose my trust, your done. And it takes a lot for me to stop respecting someone. Which i why I basically say your screwed. I forgive anything, and when you show me I can trust you, I go all the way. if you find a way to loose that, then well I don't know what to tell you! Thinking about how much I've changed has just made me think of the people that I kicked out of my life, which is kind of frustrating me, which would explain me ranting like this.... But basically that's whats up!

Its Cute<3

So I've got some pretty cute news!!!!!! Are you ready for this????

I'M ALMOST DONE WITH SCHOOL! BA HA HA HA

Just a few days left and we are so outta here! Gosh I remember how big thsi school used to look to me, and now I can't even imagine why I used to be so scared?

I think the biggest thing I want to get away from is the drama, but I will miss my friends and the people I love so much its ridiculous!

Prom:)

SO I'M FREAKING EXCITED FOR PROM!!!!
My date loves my dress, and I'm finally starting to like it. Well like i love it. We've finally started making preparations and everything is just falling into place and I'm pretty excited about the situation. My dress is white and I'm going with Jake Bruner :) :)
I am so excited its ridiculous! So I am rocking Osiris's high tops at Grand March!!! Pretty excited, and my mom is not! It happens though lol. They are so ridiculous, oh yay :) They are white, white neon yellow, blue, and red stripes. I just ugh they made my life! And Jake got like a guy version of them!

So here the plans:
Hair appointment at 9
Jake's picking me up at 1 for pictures with his mom
Stop by to see Taran White, show off :)
Back to my house for Draik and Charlie to see me
Ty stops by for me and him Pictures
Pictures with the group at my house at 3
(Me, Jake, Bethany, Rodney, Kendra, Jebril, Leah, Dallas, Brandi, Shawna, Tabitha and Corey)
Grand March at 4:30
(gonna go to Genghis Grill at one point to see my cousin Kayleigh)
Professional Pictures at 6 or so
Dinner at Elm crest at 6:45
Dance at 8
Leave to change for post prom at 11 or so
Post Prom 1-4
Perkins at 4:30 a.m.
Possible sleeping? ....not likely :p

This for sure is going to be an amazing night! I can't wait. I am gonna be with some of my closest friends, then Brittany is coming to Grand March, I'm so excited!!! I can't wait to see Jake in a tuxedo. Oh I think the funniest part of getting ready would probably be picking flowers! We got this lily that was like half dark blue and half dark purple, so pretty! With a bunch of diamonds, and feathers, and this insanely huge bracelet that of course Brittany chose. I didn't choose one thing that went on mine, it was Jake and Brittany. Well hell, Britt would have added a bird to it if she could have. lol. But the whole thing was too funny! OH MY GOSH I'M SO EXCITED WOOT WOOT :)

Random Pictures

Fun times, found them on my computer:)

Trusting Him or Myself...

I'm a very trusting person. Call me naive. But I am someone who has just been left behind, forgotten, given up on so much, that I refuse to do that to people. I can't give up, I can never give up.

So theres where I get in trouble, a guy gives me an inch, then I give him a mile. Not smart. I just see so much potenital in poeple that sometimes I go blind to what they do or who they really are. Hense I get hurt more often then I'd like. Which sucks, but you know what thats life. I think parts of me love the fact that I care so much about people. Another part of me thinks its a curse. I just wish that I could just find a happy merdium, you know what, I like that I trust people so forget that. I just wish I could find a guy worth trusting. Yeah, thats much better!

So I've recently decided to add on to my tattoo. I have a T-it needs to be something different. I hate what it stands for, so I am adding "rust" so it will read Trust. I want to mean something, and inorder for me trust people correctly, I must trust myself.

Rolling the Credits..

Yesterday was not the best morning of my life. I have insomnia, so I never sleep. And I woke up after about an hour of sleep to start my day... And all I could replay in my head was "worst mistake of my life." Thats what Trask said to his friends about me. I try so hard not to cry when it comes to him or anything, because for some odd reason people get really upset when it comes to me crying. I was having a bad day, and while I was dealing with this, I was actually saving Trask from getting his ass kicked. I should completely hate him. But I don't. I mean I honestly do not want him back, but I feel like I still just need him in my life. So I put up with his shit and let him disrespect me to his friends, and then be a completely different person when we are alone. It hurt like a dagger to hear him say something so heartless. Because I know even though both of us have regreted our reletionship, he loved it and me. We'd break up, and he was the one that always came back. Not me. Doesn't sound like you regret it that much? But ah well, shit happens.

"life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

story of my life right at the moment

i remember,

and i wanna know

Where were you,

when I said I loved you

And where were you,

when I cried at night

Waiting up,

couldn't sleep without you

Thinking of, all the times we shared I remember when my heart broke

I remember when I gave up loving you

My heart couldn't take no more of you

I was sad and lonelyI remember when I walked out

I remember when I screamed I hated youBut somehow deep inside, still loving you, sad and lonely

No one knew, all the pain I went through

All the love, I saved deep in my heart for you

Didn't know, where I would go, where I would be

But you made me leave, and plus my heart it just

It just kept telling me so

I remember when my heart broke

I remember when I gave up loving you

My heart couldn't take no more of you, I was sad and lonely

I remember when I walked out

I remember when I said I hated you

But somehow deep inside, still loving you, so sad and lonely

There was nowhere else to go, nobody else, to turn to, no

For the rest of my life, I promise myself I will love me first, genuinely

I remember when my heart broke

I remember when I gave up loving you
My heart couldn't take no more of you

I was sad and lonely

I remember when I walked out

I remember when I said I hated you

But somehow deep inside, still loving you, sad and lonely

I remember when I walked out

I remember when I gave up loving you

My heart couldn't take no more of you, so sad and lonely

I remember when I stormed out

I remember when I gave up loving you, I was sad and lonely

<3

"Okay, so let him go. It's up to you how long you let his memory stay, and do you really want to carry on this way?"

Dumb People

So i have just a list of people I'm not too happy with. Like I just dont like them, or they ticked me off, or something, regardless, they upset me!

Like I can take alot, but really just like really, my biggest pet peeves, besides drivers who think they are BA, would be back stabbers, sluts, liars, two faced people, and just fun stuff like that.

I am someone who is just able to forgive everyone for anyhting, but if you keep using the "sorry" button evenutally it doesn't work anymore you know? I am so sick and tired of having to please everyone. I am so sick of walking on egg shells for everyones feeligs. Im sick of feeling like crap. I try to make everyone so happy, and completely put my feelings a side for them, then for once I try to get something I want. And I loose. I've had to go throough so much pain and suffering in my life. And to watch people I care about suffer. I've lost everyhting, I've had to be 30 since I was 3. I've taken in more in 18 years, then most people do in a life time.

this is a song my aunt told me remind her of my and life.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of youI am afraidI lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fakeA smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of youI am afraid

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

Because of you...

Guys Suck

So I just keep hearing more and more high school drama, and bull crap! I really think that Trask needs to not be such a loser. Grow up a little bit and stop being so two-faced and dumb and urg he just annoys the hell out of me. It only makes me more and more disgusted how he can sit there when no one is around and tell me how much he cares and wants us to be friends and any time he is upset I'm the one he calls, even before Becca. Then, when he is around his friends, he talks crap about me! Tells people I was the worst mistake of his life, then an hour later, tells me he's still in love with me.. How does this work?
Funny stuff I tell you. And just so your know Becca Vogl has never had cancer. She lied to everyone because of what a screw up she is, so her parents got pissed and put her with the kids she belongs with. I told Trask this, after I called her dad Saturday night. I asked him what kind of cancer she had, and he asked me if I was playing a sick joke. How do you lie about that crap? How do you tell someone "your in love with" that you have cancer, and then not have it. Just like she told everyone her freshman year that she was going to die by the end of the year from it, um its two years passed D-day.
For anyone that reads this, you shouldn't treat people like crap, karma sucks. It will only come back to haunt you. I promise you.

Anger

So yesterday I almost got in a fight with some girl that I have never had a civilized conversation with. I "quote" "unquote" called her a slut which gave her permission to try to fight me! How dumb is that. My personality is I dont back down from people. I dont like being disrespected and told off when I've done nothing wrong. I just have a natural tendancy to never back down.

Its something inside me from my past, that has just made me have a rough aggressive side. Ususally, if someone says something to me, I'm ready with my fists up, but yesterday this chick caught me off guard, and all I wanted was for her to go away, like by no means was I scared, but it just wasn't worth it.

The Old Me is Dead and Gone..

So I've come to the conclusion that I;ve changed quite a bit in the last month, in quite a bit of ways. I've started to not care about as much, like in general. This has both good and bad consequences. I think I deffenitly changed over Spring Break. I am way more relaxed about crap, but way more confused about the guy department. I have a told new view on how I look at guys, because to be honest I've been screwed over one too many times and now I am just not as trusting. I just have been looking around mroe lately and seeing how I am not where most of the people in my life are and I guess I don't care to be where they are or what they think anymore, Im just like in the mood of wanting something new, and different not the same old dramatic crap. I'm just of my own person.
I guess I just dont care anymore, about much, butI'm worried its coming to school with me, as in my work, whihc would not be the best thing ever, so I need to start cracking down on it. I have like 2 months left of high school, so I really need to work on that lol.
I've just been out of it, like just sompletely ugh I'm not sure how to explain it, because its unlike my normal self therefore its unfamiliar to me.

Essay for a potential scholarship

My Essay Question: Who has been your mentor or role model? Why does this person play that role for you?

As I’ve grown up, there have been several people I have admired or looked up to, but there is one person that has constantly been there, and influencing my life. Although it’s a common answer, it is more the truth then one could expect.
My mom is unlike any person you’d meet. And until I started growing I never realized the person she truly is. She is the kind of woman who doesn’t given up on anyone, she constantly does what ever she can to make everyone in her life happy. With me, she has helped me since I was a little girl tell me right from wrong, and how to find the right amount of both to have a good life, which have helped develop the skills I will need to truly succeed in life. Everything truly good in me, is due to her. I learnt how to care for people, and their needs, by watching her take care of every one around me single-handedly. She is the strongest person I’ve ever met, even when she’s been at her weakest.
Since I was little my mom has forced me towards greatness. Her biggest goal for me, is to succeed and have the most amazing life possible, not just to prove to others who have doubted me in my life, but just so I can enjoy pure happiness. My mom has always been tougher on me, and more strict with me, then most parents have been with their kids. And now looking back ,and remembering at the time how much I didn’t like it, and looking at who I am and where I am in my life, I truly appreciate it. I know what makes me happy, and what I don’t need to be happy. I have respect for myself, and I love the traits that I have, because of her, besides how stubborn I am, which I completely think is her fault.
My mom is someone that most everyone feel they can go to and trust without being judged. She can give them advice that makes them want to be better, the fact that she has just made such an affect on me, makes to strive to be like her, so someone may possibly feel that way about me one day and pass it on. I owe who I am to her. There’s nothing else I can say.